Where Dreams Come True...

I'm having a writing block after the 1-year-absence from blogging world. I don't even remember when I last visited my own blog.

Let me start with a few pictures of my recent activities to keep all my friends and readers updated of what I have been up to so far.

Well, I went to Walt Disney World in Orlando, FL, on Memorial Day Weekend. My 3 days spent in FL was too short. I couldn't make it to explore all the 4 parks of Disney World, so I have to go back later to visit Disney Studio and Epcot. I'm just hoping that next time I'm there, there wouldn't be 80-minute-wait just to have one ride anymore hmm....

Anyway, I spent my first day at Disney's Animal Kingdom until the park closed at 6 pm, and continued with Disney Magic Kingdom after dinner since this park is opened until 12 am midnight. :)

Finding Nemo show at Disney Animal Kingdom

Disney Magic Kingdom's castle with the firework. The view was spectacular :)

The castle in Pink :) Which one is nicer? The one in blue above or this one? What you think?

P.S. I'm surprised to come back seeing the flood of spam messages on my Chat Box. *confused face*

Love,
Barbie

I Know I Will

I miss all blogger friends, I miss blogging, I miss blogosphere, I miss everything I used to have and do... Fairytopia Kingdom, I will come back to you one day... I know I will...

One Truth You Never Know

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if…

• I never meet you

If...

• I never know you

If...

• you never be here...
  

Perhaps my life would still be the same? Would your existence make a difference to my life? Would I still have what I have now? I ask myself a lot of questions just to get one answer, but it just never will show.

Maybe God makes me meet you for a reason; be it good or bad, I am glad to have known you, and I am grateful to have you in my life…

However, there are times when I “hate” you so much wishing that I’ve never known you at all. I remember you used to ask me why is that I despise you this much, but my response to your "why" question was "someday you'll know"..... you'll know that:

• I hate you because you are so important in my life…
• I hate you because you have a strong position in my heart…
• I hate you because you always pop up on my mind when I actually try not to think about you,
• I hate you because you have the magic to make me smile in joys or even to weep in pain…

Yes… I hate you for a lot of reasons… but perhaps you don’t know that at the same time I utter this harsh “I hate you” statement, my heart actually voices out the word “I love you” to you…

Gratitude...

I am grateful for a lot of things in my life. Although my family may not be the best family on this planet, but in my heart, they are "loving" and "caring" enough for me to make me feel like for who I am, as long as I exist, I will always be loved and cared for willingly and unconditionally... and for that, I am grateful...

I may not have a prince who is close to me now, but at the faraway La La Land's Kingdom, but I'm glad to know that, through good and bad times, through up and down moments, my prince will always stand by me, willing to listen to everything I need to say, comforting me, cheering me on, and always love me for who I am... and for that, I am grateful...

I may not have the most normal bunch of friends in the world. They are just downright juvenile, freaky, girly, dreamy, and sometimes, clumsy , but I am too, and I am happy to have everyone of them around filling my life with joys and excitements, and I am grateful to have called them "my friends"

I may not belong to the most privileged elitists category who are able to get everything they ‘want’, but I don't bother to care anyhow for I already have all the things I “need” just to live this "modest" life with those whom I love and love me the same way I do... and these should be more than enough for me.

All in all, for everything that I have, though life may seems a little too harsh at times, but I consider myself as a happy princess with a happy life... and yes, for all these, I am truly... grateful...

What If...

Life is so funny… Sometimes I just want to laugh as much as I want to cry. Sometimes, I told myself that I have actually taken enough out of life, so even if I died today, I don’t think I would have any regrets... Some of you would utter, perhaps in the weeks, months, or years to come, I would like to be a good ‘wife’ a good ‘mother’, or probably a good ‘ grandma’ … Well, It’s hard to even imagine how a selfish girl like me can be a ‘good’ wife, a ‘good’ mother, or worse yet, a ‘good’ grandmother. Hmm… I don’t think I am good enough to proudly embrace these titles…

In my life, I've always wanted to leave this world with the smile on my face, you know. At least, before I turned invisible, I would like to spend the last day that I have on this planet with my prince Charming gazing at the twinkling stars together, and bid this world goodbye with my head resting on his shoulder and my lifeless body in his embrace…

Anyway, silly as I may sound, I guess I can only come up with such non-sense thoughts when the heartbreaking incident hasn’t actually surfaced. I don’t think I am ‘that’ brave to die ‘young’, and I don’t think I am ‘that’ strong to leave my loved ones, my beloved family, my great friends, and my dear prince behind... I can’t afford to even imagine what it would be like when I suddenly disappeared from this planet... because there are so many things I wish to do, but remain undone, and I would never have the chance to do so, if I really had to depart. Boy, I am still 'young'! Well, I still 'feel' young hehe... [I still watch Barbie movie series :P] Who wouldn't fear of death? the suicide terrorists? hmm..., but I am not them, I am just me, an ordinary girl who is living her life the way she thinks she should.

So, all I want for now is just to continue living my modest life to its fullest and do things that are worth doing while I can. I was born into this planet, and I believe I am meant to be 'here'. If I wasn't, I would have gone to heaven since the time I was in the car accident 3 years back then. In fact, I am not as fearless as I just uttered. I was terrified to the max thinking that I was going to die lol...

I'm glad i am still breathing... I'm grateful that I still have the chance to inhale oxygen like everybody else, and to make it short, I am glad that I am still alive...

Alive

Time goes slowly now in my life
Fear no more of what I'm not sure

Searching to feel your soul
The strength to stand alone
the power of not knowing and letting go

I guess I've found my way it's simple when its right
Feeling lucky just to be here tonight
and happy just to be me and be alive

Love, in and out, of my... my heart,
And though life can be strange I can't be afraid

I guess I've found my way it's simple when its right
Feeling lucky just to be here tonight
and happy just to be me and be alive...

<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3...<3

Was listening to this one *new* song [sarcastic], "Alive" from Jennifer Lopez. Both music and lyric still sound not bad heh heh...

Oh, I guess I should take this chance to say "Hi!" to all my dear friends and constant readers, those who miss me, and would like to know what Barbie is up to right now. I'm still alive and hanging on just fine here. Thank you so much for your continuous support all this while. I'm happy to have you all as my friends. =)

Also, though I fail to reply you all messages, but that doesn't mean I don't see the text you left for me here. So, for those who miss reading my posts, please be patient with me, okay? I know I am slow in updating like a turtle [worse yet a snail?] now =| but I'll try to be more active, and get back to blogosphere real soon, yes, real soon, though I don't know when myself, duh! Silly!

Miss you all,
Take Care,
Barbie

There Gotta Be Somebody....

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere...
There's gotta be somebody for me out there...

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebodyelse that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there...