These Are Mine Now II ^ ^

Yippieeee!!! I got the 16GB iPod as a gift from my sister today! for what occasion? Hmm.... I have no idea ^ ^ *for what occassion, sis?* ^ ^

Regardless the fact that I love the light pink color better, but well, hot pink won't hurt simply because it still looks pretty awesome and delightful, agree? I know I belong to pinky lover category, so yeah, ^ ^ I just "LOVE" it!!! Thank you, sis! ^ ^ for picking the color of my heart for me *hug*


iPod Nano Hero ^ ^ with 9 alternative colors!!! Awesome, isn't it? so which color do you prefer?


Dior glowing blushing powder ^ ^ Wondering when I gonna use this? Lol... I'm sure it won't be a daily wear for me, but perhaps, when I have to attend the party or at the wedding reception? lol... ^ ^


So yeah, these are the items I got today from my sis ^ ^

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My Disney Princess curtain ^ ^ Isn't this cute? Keke... I hang this at my bedroom door entrance ^ ^ This one makes my room looks like a Disney Princess fairytopia kingdom ^ ^ *grin*


and this is my Disney Princess water carrier ^ ^ I know this is cute keh keh... :P


My Disney Princess pencil case ^ ^ Heh heh... ^ ^


Disney Princess adhesive tape ^ ^ Love this one as well, and all the princess characters are all here ^ ^


Here it is!!!! My very FIRST music box EVER!!!! Gosh! Even it ain't as cute as the one from Disneyland, but I love it somehow! I really do! If you happen to read one of my previous posts entititled Dreams From My Heart, you would surely know the reason why =) So yeah, Cinderella and her prince, Charming, are dancing gracefully and happily in a spin together! ^ ^

Hmm.... I'd better end up this post here ^ ^ Have a wonderful day, everyone!

Selfishness

There are times when I feel like I hate myself…

I hate myself when I realize that in my in my own efforts to achieve great things for my own self, in attempts to make my own dreams come true in my own unrealistic fairy world, till that I’ve let the special people in my life suffer…

Like when I become self-center, and start to hold on to my own life assuming that they are hanging on just fine, while in fact they are not. It’s embarrassing to accept that fact that they always show up when I need them, but I am not there for them when they need me, just because I am occupied doing my own thing in my own stupid world. I am an evil…

I hate myself for not being able to be someone they see, to be everything they want me to be, and most importantly I hate myself for being so selfish that I kinda take people for granted. Like when I love myself kind of too much till that I overlook the importance of those who love me for who I am, and end up forgetting to remind myself that if tomorrow, they are not around, my whole world would cease to exist…

I feel sorry for them, and I feel sorry for myself. Even the ways I write also sound selfish… I just don’t deserve their loves and care for me at all, I really don’t. I wish I could give them more of myself, and I wish I could stop myself from being so selfish.

Sometimes I feel like I care for people kinda too much until I got hurt to see my love and care I have for them left unappreciated, but still, life is fooling me around. For once I am the one to care for them, and for once I am the one to neglect their loves for me. Kinda funny =,=

For All That I Know

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you will lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep...

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbows will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true...

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're feeling small
Alone in the night you whisper
Thinking no one can hear you at all

You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know, tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come... true...

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The songs caught your attention drawing your inspiration to its extreme. You listen to it as if you've never heard it before while,in fact, it is the the song to be found from you most favorite fairy tale movie ever since now... and then... =)

There is something special about fairy tale, don't you think? and yeah, this is probably part of the reason why I am into fairy tale this much.

I'm awake still in the middle of the night... the gentle cold breeze blows against my sensitive body... It is raining cats and dogs outside with occasional threatening crawling thunder =) Well, Lots of thing come across my mind at this point of time... , *updated* but well, nth in particular :) Just listen to the rythm of the falling rain, and feel like writing something for fun ^ ^ feeling so cool and very sentimental, meh :P *Princess Levian, this makes more sense, doesn't it? *beating eyelashes* :P *

Imperial Awards Nomination!

I got nominated for this fabulous Butterfly fairy Award, and followed by the Rose Blogger Award, cool eh? ^ ^ Thank you so much Princess Levian for the Butterfly Award, Cutie Huan Lui for the Rose Award. So, I'd like to officially announce the 10 following nominees in alphabetical order *not biased* for these 2 awards simutaneously, heh heh...


+ Princess Angela- a sweet talented princess who just got her lovely poodle as a pet named Angel. She mostly blogs about her every day lifestyles ^ ^

+ Princess BB Yin- an adorable princess who is fond of collecting PINKY things, esp Disney Princess stuffs ^ ^ a one bubbly young princess whose dream is to come true. *hug*

+ Che Che Chobits- A one sweet loving and caring person and her realization of her dream world ^ ^ She is my beloved sister as well ^ ^

+ Princess Elena- a one cute honest princess who isn't afraid to let the world know what she feels inside, a friend whom I treasure on blog, and has now become my friend in real life ^ ^ Cool, eh? ^ ^

+ Huan Lui- a very nice and friendly young blogger indeed. *@Huan Lui: Hey babe? Sorry, I broke your rule, but it is ok, isn't it? heh heh... *

+ Princess Levian- Once you go and view her blog and get to know her better, I'm afraid you would need to get yourself an antidote if you wanna stop reading her blog lol... Er... BTW, Princess? Is that ok to nominate you for this award again? I can't help not to have you in my butterfly fairy friends cycle ^ ^

+ Princess Mei Mei- a talented young princess, and her blog is filled with love, check out ^ ^

+ Little Pika- a lovely little girl in high school, a huge fan of Korean songs and drama ^ ^

+ Princess Rasita- a new fairy tale blogger who has been constantly waiting for her fairy god mother just like me lol...

+ Princess Wendy BB- a one cute princess with a pinky blog, and so go at drawing adorable cartoon characters ^ ^

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Glad to have you all as friends! *hug...s*
Love,
Barbie

My Once Upon a Time...

For all the time that people came over and asked me; "How do I manage to live my life laughing and smiling all the time? How come I never happen to get upset and end up the rest of my day frowning and feeling so blue as they do?

For all the time that you all see me as a happy-go-lucky person, and for all the time that you all tell me how much you wish to be like me, a very blessed, close to perfect person. You must be mistaken, I'm afraid.

Each and every time I begin to look over myself, I find it hard to answer those question you uttered because I am not that someone you thought I was. I am just who I am... an ordinary girl with heart that can also feel both happiness and agony just like yours do. It is sad to accept the truth, simply because truth hurts. but well, if thing is supposed to be this way, I don't think we can possibly turn it otherwise.

Everyday, I can wear this pretending smile to ensure everyone and the whole world that I am hanging on just fine... I don't wanna burden those whom I care a lot for to listen to all my nonsense craps. However, I finally realize... realize that the more I try to suppress these gist irrational sadness and lonesomeness of mine, the bigger and the greater it surfaces. realize... that the harder I wanna escape from it, the more overwhelming and the feeling of being so lost it put me through.


I have a once upon a time that I can never forget. The time that I share everything I feel inside to those whom I love and love me back the same way, but sadly to say, it is just a once upon a time. A fairy tale story book for me to read myself, and see how much my life has changed over time, from that moment upto now, when I am writing this self-pity entry down.

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I've been thinking all along that this is my journal, and I am able to write whatever things that pop up on my mind whether it sounds ridiculous or not. At least, it is better than acting as everything is perfectly alright while in fact it is not.

Good nite for now...

More Than a Dream...

" I've always dreamed
That my life could be
Like a fairy-tale
A perfect fantasy...

Every day a new adventure...
On some undiscovered shore
Was it nothing more
Than a dream?

Then one magic night
With a single dance
I found more than just a storybook romance
And for once my life was perfect
[...]
And it was so much more than a dream...
So much more than a dream...

I could say it never happened
Just a dream from the start
But then
I'd live my life
With a broken heart...

[...]
If there's any chance to set things right
I've simply got to try
So I'll trust my heart
What else can I do?

I can't live in dreams
If my dreams are to come true
There's a better life that's waiting...
Past the mountains I must climb
I will take a chance on life
to get my once upon a time...

Oh, I want so much more
So much more...
Than a dream......"

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There's a small phrase mentioned in the Perfect Horoscope about me which I came across the other day. It goes like " She expects a lot and nearly too much lol... Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer lol..."

To me right now,

+ I don't know what I truly wanna be,
+ I don't know where my passion goes,
but I DO know that I don't wanna be misguided by any unrealistic thingys =,=

How much I wish I could stop dreaming =,= but I can never do it =,= and which is why my dream is to be continued... =|

Reflection

Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see
That if I were truly
To be myself
[...]

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
Why is my reflection someone
I don't know?

Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside...

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I accept the fact that I am an emotional *over dramatic* girl. I do not mind what people think about me. What I know is that I am happy Just to be Who I am, and I am proud to be ME :)

Have a good day, *wink*