Time quickly moves, relationships change; folks settle down develop, communication's gone, and after all two great friends gradually drift apart. Is it my fault? My best friend's, or both's? I once told myself to move on since my head could tell that I was attempting to hold on someone that has never thought to be here for me. 
We started off very well, but we ended up as if our 3 years relationship doesn't mean a thing. All the great memories between me and my best friend have engraved deeply till it is too hard to let go. Our relationship is not neccessarilly different from a one way street of my friend's walking away, and me walking back home alone feeling worse than when we first started. I wish I hadn't known that one T_T
I laugh at myself reading my previous entries about letting go and moving on. I am the worst enermy of all time, I am a terrible liar to myself. I can only say it, but can never make it. What's going on with my mind right now? That one isn't willing to make any efforts to salvage this relationship. That one has now changed to a different soul, that one doesn't care for me no more, that one isn't missing me as I do, that one has forgotten my existence in this world either, but I, in turn, tend to remember the vivid memoir of that one?
It's not easy to lose someone you love, someone you can get along with very well. I don't know what to do right now. I just want to scream though I know that my voice is practically do not matter and unheard. Lord! I'm hurt really hurt T_T Why I have to be such a poor casualty in this wonderful world while everyone is hanging around and smiling? Not fair! What I am crying out for? since there is absolutely no one to console me. Everyone keeps telling me that things will be different down the road, but how come I can only see things as the way they already are. Is it the way my life destined to go?
" Barbie, before giving up, ask yourself: Will your life be better off without this person? Does this person understand how much s/he means to you? Is there any misunderstanding in between?" *sigh* I can't get any answers to these questions yet, it's the matter of time, I guess.
Well, I do know that I can never make, change, or even heal someones to be who I want them to be, especially when they are the ones to resist the change :( Hopefully, time will help me lessen my pain... How long? Not sure, maybe One Day...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
When Relationship Ends
Posted by Barbie at 3:25 PM
Labels: My Life, Random, Relationship
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Hey my little pinkie, i am the first hehehhe...So happy cos usually i turn up quite late heheh...
Anyway, let's get to serious business! Well, losing a friend is never easy, let alone watch your best friend walk out on you like that. And i know how hard it is to let go of someone you have built so many memories with. So i think if is is possible, you should really, at all costs, try to hold tightly onto that friendship before that destructive wind blows it away. But
of course you can't do anything, my friend, if the other party is no longer willing to be your friend anymore.
Oops, feeling so sad for this post! :( hei, u walked back home alone??? haha.. i thought u drove motor.. err, laughing here jst to lift up ur spirit only! well, well, u know what? when u think it's important to keep it, u should, but if not, just let it be. but i'm sure a 3 year relation is as easy to let go huh? i lost someone i treasured too. i'm sure, if u all treasure it, keep it up! there should be someone give it in sometimes.
I know how you feel!
At the same time when YOU walks away from me, I lost 2 precious person.
the word "Love" is easy to say but it is hard to maintain forever.
yes am agree ur idea Vutha , sis take care na and be strong, send me ur phoen number phong honi
Hey babe,
Hope you had a good New Year break.
As I've said to myself, New Year = New Start. So, here's to hoping that this new year will be a new begining for you and that you will be able to resolve whatever issues you have been holding on in your heart and mind.
with thoughts,
soursdey
hmm usually i read fun stuff from ur blog but this time kinda sad . Everything go by time pls be happy little Barbie!
I dont think there's much i can do but hope u could get over it, Hmmm i'll say, been there done that and time did actually help, at least in my case. Cheer!
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